Blog Post 4
Howdy! Welcome back. :D It feels like forever since my last post... So much has happened, I simply cannot comprehend it! I’m sure you are all just gagging to know how I’ve been doing, if you haven’t seen me at all that is. I have experienced a lotof different things in the past few weeks. Things that I never thought I would ever experience! And they certainly haven’t been easy, I’m not afraid to admit, but If there is one thing I have learned from my month away, it’s that I am much stronger then I initially perceived, and that I can take on any challenge that comes my way with enough persistence and heart.
Things seemed to have been going alright for me for a little while, which is a very rare occurrence in my life, as far as I’m concerned at least. I was making it to work on time to earn my pay, my pride was at its highest peak with my brand-new tattoo, and flourishing confidence from working in retail, and I was working very hard on maintaining a healthy mind and a positive outlook on life. Yes sir, I had reached a slightly mediocre nirvana. Surely nothing could go wrong at this point. What could possibly happen to disrupt my inner bliss?
Well, life is full of many surprises. Some good, and some bad.
My mum was rushed off to Hospital with acute cardiac arrest. What was I going to do?! No matter how far back I looked through my well thought out and extremely organized list of plans, my mum going into hospital was nowhere to be found, and was certainly not expected. My panic was strong, and I hadn’t prepared for this! I had no idea how to comprehend or accept what was happening around me, and it didn’t take long for my good old friend Mr anxiety to come trotting back and fester into my mind once again.
There’s no crime in telling someone to stay strong, but in a situation so spontaneous and unexpected, staying cool and calm proved much harder then those around me made it out to be. For the first time in a while, I felt really useless. There was no way I could know for definite that she would be okay, and sitting around anxiously waiting for updates was one of the hardest things I have experienced this year. All I kept thinking was that I was going to lose her, and that this was it.
It was tough, but I learned to stay strong for my mum. The last thing I wanted to do was cause more stress for her. Even if I wasn’t as strong as I wanted to be, I was strong to the best of my ability, and that is okay. I am human.
Now before anyone starts to panic, I am pleased to let you all know that as of now, my mum is fine! It would take an awful lot to drag her down. Somehow I knew it wouldn’t take long for her to bounce back into her old self again and carry on with her journey. Heh, this is just one experience I know she won’t let me forget. :’D
Regardless, Mum, if you are reading this, I love you! I am so grateful for everything you have done for me, and for everything you still continue to do.
Ha. Anyway.. I think it’s time to throw some major positivity up in the air, don’t you? All this mushy stuff is making me queasy.
If you are part of the Exceptional Ideas crew, you will already know that on Friday 16thNovember, we said goodbye to one of our most loyal and kind team members known as Niki. Niki is responsible for so much joy in my life! And I definitely wouldn’t be where I am today without her love and support. I felt it was only right (with the help of a few others, of course) to give her the proper send-off that she deserves.
With that being said, a farewell party was quickly put into the works. I was tasked with providing snacks for all the guests to eat, and with distracting Niki so she wouldn’t suspect anything. I planned to make this a party that she would never forget, regardless of how it turned out. A lot was put on my shoulders to make this party memorable, but as far as I was concerned, nothing would stop me, and I was determined to return all the joy and kindness that Niki had given to me over the years straight back to her.
Needless to say, the party was a success, and I take full credit of course! (Well.. The company director Hazel helped a little.) The food was tasty, and a lot of familiar faces showed up too. It was really lovely to see everyone together once again to celebrate a person we all care about. I even took the liberty of writing a poem, which I plucked up the courage to read aloud despite my nerves. A lot of people laughed, which made me very happy.
My lesson coming away from these last few weeks is to treasure those you have in your life while they are still there, because anything is possible whether bad or good. And finally, always search for the grey in every situation. Regardless of how long the search may take, and how hard an outcome is to find, the grey is always there.
Stay safe, and keep smiling. You are worth so much.
- Shannon. 😊